Cloudy-ness

"Courage is being scared to death... and saddling up anyway"-John Wayne

So, All packed up. Just waiting for my hair to dry so I can straighten it. Or else it will be a bunch of curls everywhere. yep thought I got over my fear of flying but honestly im sick to my stomach scared! I can tolerate going to San Anton by plane because I mean it only takes like an hour. Now going to Chicago it's 4 hours plus I have to change planes in Houston and Ar-Kansas. This might be a little extreme (but than again yall theres no happy medium with me.) I feel like I'm gonna die on a plane. Just have a really bad feeling. Just wishing for the best, wishing nothing happens. I wouldn't want my family to be upset I love my dad and sis, mom very much and I sure as hell wouldn't want them hurting over me. Want them happy!! STUPID anxiety!! Im sure i'll it will pass once I get on.

Anyways, speaking of family. Every time me and my dad,sis go out to eat he always orders a drink. It's funny because my dad does not drink at all. Like seriously theres only a handful of times I seen him drink. He's is most definitely not like my mom. Life must be getting to him. Imagine working your ass off, always going out of town and having to put up with two spoil brats! I respect him so much, My one and only true hero. Now my mom can drink like crazy and wake up the next morning and work two jobs shes awesome. She always manages to get back on her feet. I look up to her minus the drinking part. And my sis. She's a cute sassy smart girl! She's so innocent. She's my little angel. I love her so much. Now my bro (sigh) miss him.

Random thought- Do you get paid for volunteering? I would love to volunteer washing the little sea animals that are being affected by the oil spill.

oh yeah! Note to self- Buy sunblock.

(Doc wanted me to translate in Spanish to the patients parent to buy sun-block because her child was getting white spots. Then he said "It looks like you need it too Jennifer" I'm like WHAT! I do not!! tho I do have a white spot under my eye thats been there for like 4 months and it has been bothering me but I got over it. Till he brought it up. So, I shall be getting sunblock from now on. As if I get sunburn. Stupid white spot. )

Anywho, So I been looking up thing to do in Chicago and I have a list. Lets see if I can squeeze everything in!

-Shedd Aquarium

-Field Museum

-Planetarium

-Navy Pier-Big ferris wheel by lake Michigan, hot air balloon

(random thought- I went to a Hot air balloon fest like 2 years ago and it sucked! couldn't even get on them)Anyways

-Sears tower, John Hancock skydeck

-Art fest

-Wine fest

I also want to try Chicago style deep-dish pizza. Although, I not a fan of deep dish and I'm sure i won't be impressed by it. I might as well still try it. I also want to go to Uno's even tho its going to taste exactly the same as the one in downtown FT. Worth. I mean you can't not go to Uno's when you go to Chicago. Just doesn't seem right.

Hah, I was searching for bars in Chicago and a whole bunch of them were gay bars with drag shows, Im like WTF!!! I just wanted to find a normal bar. I have no problem with gay people. Hey, what love is love. And there welcome to do my hair and make-up when ever they want!

Word of the day-

Deprived-

marked by deprivation; lacking the necessities of life

I feel like I'm so deprived out of sleep lately, Need more sleep! or coffee!